Boring Life

So I am off tomorrow for a few days in Nashville, TN. I am really excited that both of my 'big' trainings for work revolved around two places I've always wanted to see. Hopefully we will have great drivers like we did in San Antonio and we are able to sight-see at night. I love the rush of the trainings, I have heard they are getting more intense and more hands on. So I am a little nervous about that. I love teaching but standing up in front of hundreds of people who teach the same thing you do, it can get a little competitive, and that's just not my personality.

For once in my life, I have this feeling of not really wanting to go. It has nothing to do with expanding my knowledge in haircutting or networking with new learning leaders. It's that my life has been so busy here, I just don't really know what it will feel like to have 5 days to not have to be here or there. I love everything about my new town and the people that I have met. It's just odd that I'm leaving again all by myself, but this time things are so different. I'm not coming home to a place I really don't want to be at....I'm not coming home to a 'boring' life. I will be arriving to friends who are already planning a welcome back dinner for me and the others that are on vacation. I will be coming back to amazing people on my softball team. I hope this makes sense. But for once in my life I feel needed and wanted by others. I have for so long been that friend who gave and gave and never recieved anything. I've pretty much divorced those people, and rejoined people who think and feel like me and know how to treat others with respect.

On top of that note, man I sound bitchy but really it's just the honest truth! I am starting to take "classes" through work by reading a book and then meeting with someone once a week to talk about my 'feelings'....I'm a little freaked out by it, I have to keep a journal, I think it will be a great benefit to our company but the person I have to talk to is a great friend to me. It just seems a little odd, it's like a life coach. But you know anything to make me a little better, that's fine with me!