Lessons

This week has been a great "lesson" week. I had 2 of the hardest work outs ever. Mindy kicked my butt around on Monday and Nick did on Thursday and in between I did it to myself. By Friday I am tired and near exhaustion, but I am still going.

I am learning so much. I am totally scared to work out with guys. I mean, here I am, in a big bad gym with these strong guys. There is an intimidation level for me. It doesn't have to even be in a gym, it's socializing with guys in general. I have put them off for so long that they have become non existent in my life. Now I'm talking the ones I like, some of my guy friends, well they are into guys or even married so that's a different story...I can be fine with them. It's this fear level. I know Nick is Mindy's husband, and I trust them completely in every aspect. But working out with Nick, now he is on a totally different fitness level than me. But get this, I lasted the whole 2 hours with him. Could I barely walk to the car, yes! Could I barely lift my hands over my head, yes! But my confidence level soared after. He pushed me more than anyone ever has....and I am growing not only in fitness levels but in emotional levels as well. God is working out all my kinks. All the things I have put off for so long, guys, fitness, proper eating habits, the list goes on and on. And in many different ways I am becoming the person I have always wanted to become.

I am just excited to get to spend more time with both of them, training in different ways, so I can grow in all levels. Ah, I love them.....oh I may put off weigh in for another week. I just am not ready yet, I do not feel anywhere close to where I should be.