I have enough...

I have been having a headache for the past week. My mind is so overloaded right now. I am certifying in color on Tuesday. Wow, I never thought this day would come and now it's here. I feel very confident, but for some reason my nerves are still there. Tonight I went to play Bingo for Matt's birthday, kind of a joke in a way but a total blast! As I was sitting there, my nerves got to me. I was two away from winning $500. This thought crossed my mind. Two years ago, $500 would have meant nothing to me. But today at this moment in my life, it could change a whole lot of things. I wouldn't be scared to pay my rent in fear I wouldn't have enough to get groceries that week. Or I could pay my car payment and not have to worry about where my rent check would come from. It just seems that life has gotten so much more complicated. I'm not saying I want a stash of money in the bank. I just think it's so nice that my friends are so great to me. I would love to be able to repay them. God has just given me such wonderful things. Parents who totally amaze me everyday. My new friends who challenge me and intrigue me. A job that pushes me to the breaking point, but still yearn for more. Two nephews who know me and talk about me when they wake up. I am so blessed and it has nothing to do with money. I know the day will come when I am comfortable with cash flow, it's just not right now. But I am so comfortable with what God blesses me with everyday. I have enough, I wouldn't take any amount of money in the world if it meant I'd lose something I already have. So here's to life....